.:: a ToKeN of LoVe ::.

WELL DONE!!!

my dear beloved sista...

MASHITAH BT MOHAMED DESA...

for her successful in PMR!!! 8A's 1B

I'm very proud of u dear....mmg xsia2 laaa blk je skolah tros ngadap buku smpai mlm...kkak pon xcm2..huhu
btw,ignore the B for arabic coz me too got B...hahahahahaha
pas ni struggle for ya SPM 2011...
Congratez jugak to others...akak cm xingt laak sape yg skali ngn shitah..pape pon GREAT JOB!!


p/s: 1) masih blom t'lmbat nk wish...

.:: LuvLy DeDicaTioN ::.

Salam,

Kepada students yang gagal mendapat tajaan dari PCMC, saya harap awak jangan berputus asa. Teruskanlah perjuangan awak. Usia awak masih muda. Perjalanan awak masih jauh. Banyak lagi perkara yang awak akan dan perlu tempohi. Satu kegagalan tidak menjadikan awak seorang yang akan gagal selamanya. Sebaliknya pelajarilah dari kegagalan. Ianya akan mematang dan mendewasakan awak, agar awak berfikir dan muhasabah diri ke arah kebaikan. Agar hidup awak lebih baik dan lebih sempurna. Agar matlamat awak lebih fokus.

Jadikanlah hari esok, hari yang lebih baik dari hari yang sudah berlalu.

Ingat pesanan saya : Saya ingin awak menjadi seorang pejuang. Bukannya pemberontak. Seorang pemberontak dia berjuang kerana kerjanya membangkang tanpa matlamat yang jelas. Seorang pejuang dia berjuang kerana ingin menegakkan kebenaran. Seorang pejuang, bila jatuh, dia akan bangun kembali dan terus berjuang sehingga cita-citanya tercapai.

Berjuanglah. Punyailah cita-cita besar yang akan menenggelamkan segala halangan dan kekecewaan di hati. Sahutlah cabaran saya agar awak menjadi 10 kali lebih baik dari saya.

Walau saya sudah tak mengajar awak, saya tidak pernah putus mendoakan kejayaan awak di dunia dan akhirat. Semoga cita-cita saya terkabul untuk melihat awak semua berjaya.

Dengan nama Allah Yang Maha Pengasih Lagi Yang Maha Penyayang

llahi
Apakah orang yang telah merasai manisnya cinta-Mu akan menginginkan pengganti selain-Mu Apakah orang yang telah bersanding di samping-Mu akan mencari penukar selain Mu

illahi
Jadikan kami di antara orang yang Kaupilih untuk pendamping dan kekasih-Mu
yang Kau ikhlaskan untuk memperoleh cinta dan kasih-Mu
yang Kau rindukan untuk datang menemui-Mu
yang Kau redhakan (hatinya) untuk menerima qadha-Mu
yang Kau anugerahkan (kebahagiaan) melihat wajah-Mu
yang Kau limpahkan kerredhaan-Mu
yang Kau lindungi dari pengusiran dan kebencian-Mu
yang Kau persiapkan baginya kedudukan siddiq di samping-Mu
yang Kau istimewakan dengan makrifat-Mu
yang Kau arahkan untuk mengabdi-Mu
yang Kau tenggelamkan hatinya dalam iradah-Mu
yang Kau pilih untuk menyaksikan-Mu
yang Kau kosongkan dirinya untuk-Mu
yang Kau bersihkan hatinya untuk diisi cinta-Mu
yang Kau bangkitkan hasratnya akan karunia-Mu
yang Kau ilhamkan padanya mengingat-Mu
yang Kau dorong padanya mensyukuri-Mu
yang Kau sibukkan dengan ketaatan-Mu
yang Kau jadikan dari makhluk-Mu yang saleh
yang Kau pilih untuk bermunajat pada-Mu
yang Kau putuskan daripadanya segala sesuatu yang memutuskan hubungan dengan-Mu

Ya Allah
Jadikan kami di antara orang-orang yang kedambaannya adalah mencintai dan merindukan-Mu nasibnya hanya merintih dan menangis dahi-dahi mereka sujud karena kebesaran-Mu
mata-mata mereka terjaga dalam mengabdi-Mu
air mata mereka mengalir karena takut pada-Mu
hati-hati mereka terikat pada cinta-Mu
Kalbu-kalbu mereka terpesona dengan kehebatan-Mu

Wahai Yang cahaya kesucian-Nya bersinar dalam pandangan para pencinta-Nya
Wahai Yang kesucian wajah-Nya membahagiakan hati pada pengenal-Nya
Wahai Kejaran Kalbu para perindu
Wahai Tujuan Cita para pecinta

Aku memohonkan cinta-Mu
dan cinta orang yang mencintai-Mu
dan cinta amal yang membawaku ke samping-Mu
Jadikan Engkau lebih aku cintai daripada selain-Mu
Jadikan cintaku pada-Mu membimbingku pada redha-Mu
kerinduanku pada-Mu mencegahku dari maksiat atas-Mu

Anugerahkan padaku memandang-Mu
Tataplah diriku dengan tatapan kasih dan sayang
Jangan palingkan wajah-Mu dariku
Jadikan aku dari penerima anugerah dan karunia-Mu
Wahai Pemberi Ijabah

Ya Arhamar-Rahimin
Amieen

Regulatory Affairs Office
Damansara Perdana
24 December 2009
4.32am

.:: Ro-ZhA-QhI ::.

"Sesungguhnya Allah memberi rezeki kepada siapa yang dikehendakiNya tanpa hisab"Surah Ali Imran ayat 37...

Benar skali spt ape yg tlah Allah firmankn dlm surah d atas...bukTnya spt ape yg telah b'laku pada arini...whre the Prince Court Medical Centre (PCMC) had given us a visit wif a"big suprise"..Sbnanye dh ade kaba angin yg b'tiup mngatekn PCMC would come n interview us for the 3rd TIME!!! T'nyata perkara yg ditakuti itu mnjadi 1 knyataan yg amat menyakitkan....huuu

1st thing in the morning they (Pn Sharmeen n Mss Munirah) met with our lecturer..I think,they jez wanted to know regarding our syllabus..Then later we've been given a briefing....my heart had been broken into pieces...not only me but another 9 hearts...they told us that we've to go through "ANOTHER" interview coz they would only like to select 3 or 4 out of 10 of us....they said..due to the country economic crisis their (PETRONAS) business are starting to shrink...sadly to say that they "HAVE"!!to reduce our no....

Jez imagine how frustrated we are....after they promised us that the last interview was the finale and 10 of us hav been the luckiest from the 12th to get sponsored by them...and it is stated in their emel send to en.mai...according to their emel they will come back for briefing and the agreement...Yet!!!other thing was happen...Sincerely to say...i'm not ready for any interview!!!

While waiting for them in the waiting room...we called cik poji to ask wut had they discussed wif the lecturers???poji said that they only wanted to know briefly abou our syllabus...thats all..myB he realized that ol of us were a lil bit down n frustrated by looking at our pathetic face....huuuuu
Poji said..."Relax..n jez go for d interview...cube kamu tgk...bile2 mase saje kn Allah nk amek blk rezeki die..die amek...kn??so,dont b so frustrated..insyaallah rezeki ade kt mane2...yg penting..go inside there answer their questions n dont 4get to SMILE!!!they r not looking at how itelligent r u..or how gud r u in pharmacology..bt ur ATTITUDE!!!so...plz dont 4get to SMILE...dont worry ok??u have done ur best until u reach diz level n evrybody is very proud of u...."

Suddenly Pn Sharmeen interrupted and called for lisa...THANX SIR...rase sket relief bcoz we were tensed up by the suprising news...next calling was for me and I dont want to discuss about wut i've gone through in d conference room wif them...bt we'r jez having a chitchating session...huhu

We also express our dissappointment to them for not keeping their promise...we've been forbiden by the management form attending the KPJ hospital interview bcoz konon2 we already have PCMC...bt now!!!look wut've happen.....that's why we r very frustrated...they keep telling us that we still can apply for a job wif PCMC...bt again!!that's not wut we'r looking 4ward to...coz last time they have confirmed us as their sponsorship receiver...

I would like to acknowledge my
1)MOM & DAD coz they alwiz give their full support...mak said.."bnyk2 laaa doa"..nnT mak doakn jugak...aamiien..LUV u guyz so MAC!!
2)Cik poji for being our pnyelamat mood..huhu (I owe u a lot sir..ehe)
3) Nippo ji..thanx 4 always being there 4 me when i'm in need...Miss Yaaaa mac!!
4) Big Bro,Bedi...thank u 4 d kata2 nasehat...u almost make me cry...huhu

Without u guyz..my life would b miserable...furthermore,i'd gone through a very stressful day in pass few days..n now another problem is added...THANX a BUNCH!!!


"Kita selalu lupa atau jarang ingat apa yang kita miliki, tetapi kita sering kali ingat apa yang orang lain ada."

~** Yakinlah REZEKI itu dr ALLAH **

.:: KeHiLangaN mu saYang....

After a long silent..i came back wif a very sad story of mine..huuuuuu
on thE 20/12/09 i've lost my beloved one..isk3
so daMn precioUs thinG in My Life..
I stiLl in a shoCk staTe n canT believe daT i've neva eVa been given a chance 2 say at leasT a warm gudBye..(poyo jek)..myB it is All my False 4 being careless...
b4 i'm goIng to "blibeR" xtnTu pasAl..
let us tuRn to The deC 20th......

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I've planned to watch movies wiF lisa n gave an accompany to shop 4 her xmas@bdaY party dress on 19th @midvaley..bt it doesn't appear to be..dat day i woke up at 12.30pm n she went out wif amir 4 a midnite movie n overnite at wanie's house...instead of going wif her,i've persuaded syima to "teman" me..we've decided to lepak in sremban only n watched movies at Terminal 1..


afteR movies we gobbled(lapa sgt..hihi) our prosperity 4 lunch n then did a window shopping(aku je kot yg window shopping sbb syima beli baju)..tawaf stiap floor kt c2..lalu kt cimb ttbe rs cm nk ceq duit..bcoz it's very mysterious dat there's no money inside where as abah had bank in last thursday..i'm jez checking again..n btol xde jugak duit...i jez took my acc no in case klu silap bank in msk acc org len..bt my abah keep telling me dat he banked in in my acc coz my name appeared...(xpelaaa)

Then we went to diz kedai buku n i've bought NUR..(ttbe jek..xpnah2 beli pon..hehe)...we went to accessories shop 4 a sec n then stopped by "kedai2 tudung"..n then syima ajak blk bcoz we've nothing to do...dat time was at 4.30pm when i realized my "syg" is gone..coz I asked syima "nk beli pape x b4 blk??"(smbil tgn raba2 beg carik my "syg")n........

OMG!!!!!
me::. syima..purse aku kt ko ke??
syima::. mn de aku pegang..
me::. alaamk..mn pg ni??xde pon dlm beg..(carik sume celah..sisi n sudut beg)
syima::. jom laa kite carik...

We went back to d kedai buku carik n ask d personel..tp stil cant find..(dat bookshop personel mcm xpaham melayu sbb bile tnye "ade nmpak purse x??"die blur2..syima siap tnye.."hav u seen a wallet??u know wallet??dompet??purse??..(HAHAHA)org tu hnya geleng2 jek...
pas2 i suggested dat we do a lakonan smule on wut we've done starting from d bank till to d kedai tdg...we did dat for almost 10x...syima ckp last die nmpak purse tu after i paid the mag..mmg pon..initially i thought of putting it inside d plastic bag contain d mag bt d purse was 2 heavy n i THINK i put it into d bag...waallhua'lam klu jatoh n we didnt realize...
Tp xmgkin xperasan bcoz my tote bag was on the left side which syima was there beside me n we were walking as slow as snail..huhu

It is vry impossible 2 anyone nk amek purse dlm bag bcoz i can feel it even a very graceful movement...n we've done a few demonstrations..(org lalu lalang tgk jek)..we walk out from d building sbb nk carik balai polis nk wat report..malang nye xde...i've been sitting on dat tembok for almost 1hr doing nothing bt t'menong only...otak dh blank sgt2 n xtau nk ckp kt sape..
i've texted nippo ji of wut had hapen coz dats d only person suddenly came accross to my mind..then suddenly aku t'ingat cik poji (my microb lecturer in sem 2@my fello@my geng)..i told him n he asked me to be back in mantin n he'll bring me to lodge d police report...(TQ sir)..i've told bedi n i dunno y i shed a tears when i told him??mgkin bebel bnyk sgt kot bedi..although he's not intended to scold me bt i felt like i've been scolded..hehe
Pas mgrib pg wat report then inform my mom..sorry mom!!kkak xnk mak risau..kang asek tepon tanye n i would b very miserable..sorry n thanx to abah coz u hav to bank in d money again..huhu

ahaaah!!the purse contain........

1) small sum of money RM + Rupiah (nk 10 000 rupiah lak pasni tau nippo..hehe)
2) mykad n driving licence
3) 4 bankcards ( CIMB,Mybank,BSN n Muamalat)
4) Insurans card (Takaful..worth 4 RM50000)
5) Touch n Go (worth 4 RM30..huhu)
6) Membership card (J-card,GreenBox,Hinode)
7) studenT id (KMK n KUTPM..my memory isk3)
8) Bus Ticket to Prt.Buntar (an open ticket worth 4 RM45 coz it's a super VIP seat..huuu)
9) SeTeM Hasil (worth 4 RM20)
10) Pics ( Nik saRa n izwaa + my Mucuuuk,Qurot)

I dont really care about the money coz i still can hav it(mntak abah jek..hehe)bt ol d memories r gone 2gether...bak kate anip..ade hikmahnye......huhu
i get motivated after reading a very interesting article in NUR..perhaps i could share wif u guyz later in the next post...
LBNL..Thanx to ol 4 d support n i'm very lucky to hav u guyz..especially mak n abah..LUV YAA..

Figure 1. My Syg in memory....

.:: SesUnggUHnya kaMi miLik aLLaH daN akN kmBaLi kPd-Nya..Ya aLLAh!!KPd mu aKu mmBeriTahukn muSibAh yg Aku deriTai inI. MaKa berILah aku GanJaraN kRn nYa daN tuKar Lah muSibaH itU dgN keBajiKan ::. amiiN ya RaabBaL a'Lamin ~**

p/s :-

1) going through a very hectic life..cramp timetable!!!

2)masih xde mykad..sok baru nk g JPN..huhu

3)i've become an alert person now..huhu